Being Here Is Everything

In the moment

Time, it seems, is a prison of our own creation. We are always waiting for something.

Waiting until we are in a new place. Waiting for an opportunity. Waiting for someone. Waiting for change.

Waiting for the next moment, when really, the only moment that ever exists is NOW.

Look around you. See, hear, and feel what is taking place in your surroundings.

Experience this moment.

As I write, my present moment consists of the hum of the refrigerator. The drizzle of rain. The subtle warmth of the sun as it pours through the tiny kitchen windows at this late morning hour.

I see, hear, and feel these things, resisting the urge to label them as “good” or “bad.” They simply are.

In this moment, there is no time. Just presence. Awareness. Appreciation.

The present moment is a gift. Yet we squander it in favour of a non-existent future, or a past that cannot be changed.

So while many things are “imperfect” or not yet in place, this year has been an incredible one full of so many gifts. The scary or frustrating parts won’t be remembered, but they will serve to build character in the now.

How I choose to act in response to unstable times will be what matters in the end.

And so, I have no choice left but to appreciate the here and now. It is part of my path, and it’s teaching me plenty if I open my heart to it. It’s teaching me gratitude. It’s teaching me patience. It is teaching me mindfulness. It is showing me my own resilience.

Writing in a journal while seated at the messy dining room table, wearing my oversized pajamas, will hardly seem glamorous. But why shouldn’t we be allowed to be unglamorous? Why can’t we find glamour in this, the most mundane of moments? It is the now. It is what is, and it is perfect.

Perhaps more importantly, though, I should at least recognize this moment for the privilege that it is. To sit here with a roof over my head, food in my belly, clothes on my back, and the freedom and security to pursue a creative career – I am blessed!

If I am ever ungrateful for the blessed life that I am living, then I don’t deserve to experience it at all. And so we find ourselves back at gratitude.

Gratitude grounds us in the now. It allows us to appreciate what is rather than longing for what could be.
Even if the now feels like it sucks (which it oftentimes will) it is here to be experienced – even cherished. Every moment – whether happy, sad, frustrated, angry, or scared – is part of our path.
Living in the NOW is the only way to free ourselves from the constricts of time. The only way to truly live.

If we can sit quietly for a few minutes each day to reflect on this fact, we’ll always be grateful, and we’ll always be free.

Cherry Blossoms

Taking A Leap Answering The Call

Have you ever had a moment in your life when you felt it was time to take a huge leap, and get on the path to something bigger?

Something that may not have made total sense at the time…but somehow felt right?

Keep in mind, when I say “huge leap”, I’m talking about major life upheavals here. Moments when the only thing between you and achieving the life you’ve been dreaming of is…your entire life as you know it.

Maybe you’d have to leave everything you know, or invest thousands of dollars you don’t really have, or releasing lifelong relationships to create space for magic, and what comes after.

Then, I’d like to ask: What happened next?

If you decided to move forward: Was there ever a right time to take the step? How did you know it was a good plan to decide to chase a dream, and uproot everything so you, your business, and your future could transform?

If you decided to stay put: What about that moment was the wrong time? Do you think, if you could do it over, that you’d make the leap after all?

These are all questions I’ve been asking myself for the past year, as I’ve undergone some of the most incredible, powerful, painful changes of my life and business.

So, why did you do it?

Why was total upheaval the best choice for me, out of everything I could have done? Why did I shake up my life completely when my life was “fine” as it was?

The answers to those questions run deep – and finding them is one of the most important adventures I’ve ever embarked on.

Often, the deeper truths that only we know, the truths that create a burning hunger for change, alignment, and greatness within us – are some of the hardest to explain.

They’re the leaps that create greatness; in our lives, in our companies, and in our place in the Universe.

Sometimes you could be doing something and everything seems really good…but can feel totally off at the same time.

That’s the most important starting point of a soul: there’s a specific feeling when you’re being called to take one. And you can’t shake it .

It’s different for everyone. Some of us feel endlessly restless. Others feel an ache in their heart for whatever next phase is waiting for us.

For me, I was feeling like a tree planted in a small pot with roots that had nowhere else to go. You can keep a tree in a pot and then you can repot it in a bigger pot so it can continue to grow, but if you want it to grow into all that the tree’s seedling was perfectly programmed to be, you’d plant it outside.

I was feeling that in order to become all I was programmed to be, I needed to be repotted.

To tell you the truth, the feeling that been growing more and more powerful over the years. But still, I resisted. I resisted the clear calling of my soul. It happens to all of us. Now it was at its peak, and for weeks I pushed it down. And yet, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t shake what my intuition was guiding me to do.

But with anything in life I knew it wasn’t going to be a walk in the park.

So I did what I often do in those moments: I challenge the Universe to a game of “Heads or Tails”.

If I got a positive sign about whatever it was I was asking about, I’d take that as the sign it was a go, and I’d do it. If I didn’t, I’d stay put.

Take note: When you challenge the Universe to a game of Heads or Tails, you better be prepared to make good on your end of the bargain.

That’s exactly what happened as I embarked on one of the most terrifying, costly, and emotional experiences of my life.

But I’d lost the bet. The Universe was pushing me forward and I’d promised myself I’d listen. So, listen I did.

So I want to ask you two questions:

Is there a leap you should be taking (and are currently maybe resisting) right now? A jump that would make you feel so much more aligned in your work and business?

What’s holding you back, and what could you create if you did choose to step forward?

When we take huge risks? We make room for even bigger successes and payoffs.


Siblings Love

Family First

…because I have one brother and two sisters, I will always have best friends. You are a bit of childhood that can never be lost. Oh, the memories and oh how I love you guys. You are my heart.

Happy National Siblings Day.



Live Laugh Love

Livin’ And Lovin’ Life

Over the past month or so, I’ve done a lot of thinking about the trajectory of my life. This tends to happen each year as my birthday approaches. This year I was deeply motivated to make a real shift in my life.

I’ve often heard from others that you reach a certain point in life where your truth can no longer be denied. I recently told a friend that I seem to have come to a place where I have zero tolerance for bullsh**, pardon my French.

We spend so much of our early years trying to please others and fit in, be it conscious or unconscious. I think everyone does this to some extent. It’s survival tactic. Deviate too much from the pack and you’ll be rejected. And in the wild, this can mean the difference between life and death. So it’s simply primal. And completely normal for us to want to fit in.

But there comes a time in life when certain things just no longer work. You realize what you can and can’t tolerate and staying true to your inner integrity becomes more important than pleasing the outside world.

Not that this means we become cold, heartless individuals only after our own agenda. Quite the opposite. Being true to who we are at the core and sharing that with those around us only makes us that much more accessible and respected by others because we’re all wired to respond to truth.

Others may not agree with us but they don’t have to. That’s the beauty of it. We can agree to disagree but still maintain a respect for the other.

I think this naturally comes with age. As we get older we start to realize our time here is finite and that we need not concern ourselves with things that don’t matter.

As for me, I’ve set the intention beginning today, to live this year as though it were my last. An old friend of mine made this proclamation last spring and I’ve witnessed as her life has blossomed over the last year so it’s inspired me to do the same.

What does this mean?

This mainly means finding enjoyment in my everyday life with the people I’m with and the things I do. It means branching out and taking risks on projects that have been calling to me for quite some time. And not holding back but really going for whatever calls to me. Making pleasure and enjoyment the main priority.

And overall, just living life to the fullest!

I believe it was Steve Jobs that said he asked himself every morning upon waking, “If this were my last day on earth, would I be doing what I’m about to do today?” If he answered “no” too many days in a row, he knew he had to make a change.

Simple yet brilliant advice. And advice I plan on taking to heart every day over the course of the next year.

I Love Christmas

33 days until Christmas!!! Tis the season to be jolly falalalala lalalala…

I’m almost ready for Christmas. The only thing missing is the tree and ever since I started getting a real Christmas tree I have not gone back to the artificial ones. It really doesn’t compare. There’s just something about a real tree that I love…the rustic look and the smell of pine throughout the house. It’s like bringing the outdoors inside, I love that.

Have I told you I love Christmas yet?!?! I LOVE CHRISTMAS so so so so so much!!! Baking/cooking up a storm, drinking hot chocolate, sitting by a wood burning fireplace, matching pj’s, skating, snowboarding/skiing, snowball fights, making a snowman and snow angels, most importantly being with family and friends, creating memories, making new traditions and carrying on old ones. The only thing I dislike is the gift aspect of it, not the giving of gifts…I love seeing my family open their gifts and seeing their smile. I just dislike the shopping part – it’s super stressful, there’s no getting around that at all. I’m not a last minute shopper because that’s just wayyyyy to crazy for me. I started early this year and it was still completely nuts! And this is coming from someone who normally enjoys shopping. I don’t know why I act all surprised though because it’s like this every year during this time. I think maybe I don’t enjoy shopping like I used to?!?! Nooo  that can’t be it! Or maybe it has something to do with my old age?!?! seems the more likelihood!

So…this year I decorated my house early…gotta love Christmas in November.


Front of the house


christmas3Front door

xmaseChristmas tree made out of lights

113Dining room



Living room fireplace





It took 2 days to get the entire house decorated. I have a few more gifts to buy and a ton of wrapping to do.

And then its time to make, bake and decorate…cookies, cookies, cookies. Oh how I love Christmas!

Hitting Rock Bottom…

…is a blessing in disguise

Just like any good adventure, it’s only worthwhile if you come back having learned some solid lessons and with wisdom to share from having survived the fall. And so with 20/20 hindsight, I want to share with you why I believe it’s a blessing in disguise.

At the bottom, you realise just how far off course you were and that your life choices were simply not sustainable. It’s in those dark moments of despair that your anger and frustration become so great, you declare once and for all, never to accept such mediocrity from yourself or from others ever again.

At the bottom, all your dysfunctional behaviours are finally revealed. If you ever hit your lowest point, the dysfunctions continue to go unnoticed and unchecked, playing out under the denial radar and inevitably creating bigger dysfunctions and a harder fall down the track. Until the bubble bursts, you cleverly delude yourself into thinking everything is juuuuust great and your life ends up being built on a big fat lie and a false foundation.

Hitting rock bottom is the beginning of questioning everything that you’ve ever thought to be true. You question your motives, other people’s motives, your beliefs, your fears, why you did things, why you didn’t do things, why you attracted certain people and circumstances, why you succeeded, why you failed. The very fabric of your life is turned upside down and examined in raw detail. It’s from this point that you build again, from the ground up, with a fresh perspective based on your renewed sense of clarity.

At the bottom, your disempowering patterns and behaviours become glaringly obvious and the triggers that kept you repeating those behaviour patterns come into sharp focus. You realise that hitting rock bottom was not only inevitable but necessary because those behaviours were simply not conductive to your growth. On top of that, and perhaps most importantly, all the roles you’d been playing pop into your conscious awareness. It becomes clear you’ve been a kind of puppet, playing the same role over and over, creating the same dynamics over and over and keeping the drama going over and over, like a well paid actress in a soap opera. It’s not until you break the mould and start the journey back to your true self that you stop playing those old scratched records and begin to create new conscious outcomes.

You realise at the bottom, that you were, in fact, not where you thought you were in life. It was your ego running the show with grandiose ideas about what you could do, not realising you didn’t yet have the foundation to successfully accomplish those things. That’s when your ego begins to loosen it’s death grip on you, and you start to trust life and choose to live in the present moment more often. As you surrender to your higher self more and more, you become into alignment with your right purpose and right life path.

You gain humility. You see that life is not black and white and that you don’t know everything. In fact, you realise you know very little and you decide to become a student of life rather than a juror.

You gain compassion. You understand what it’s like for people who are in deep levels of despair, shame, guilt and fear. You can’t help but come back from the bottom without feeling immense compassion for all that humanity endures and the human condition.

You’re able to let go of everything, because nothing is working anyway! Letting go of the old creates space for the new and soon new ideas, people, opportunities, talents and gifts start to turn into your experience. As you empty your cup, so to speak, you fill it back up with stuff that you actually want, instead of accepting what was unconsciously passed onto you. Life hands you a fresh cup of reality.

After you’ve hit the bricks, you, perhaps, for the first time, begin to accept full responsibility for all the outcomes in your life. You see blaming is futile, that complaining is dumb, and that making excuses is for the unenlightened. You realise it was you who created all the good and all the bad in your life and only you can pull yourself out of the dark hole you dug for yourself so you can finally become whole.

The good news is, once you’ve hit the bottom you know you can’t possibly go any lower and you realise the bottom is actually a great springboard from which to push yourself up to the surface away from the darkness and back into the light.

Hitting the bottom wakes you up to how you were replying on externals to make you happy. Instead of needing outside validation, you begin to trust yourself and start the journey within to find your own sense of self, your own sense of purpose and your own validation. This new inner sanctuary becomes the foundation for your new happy and meaningful life.

And finally, after hitting your lowest point, you become enormously grateful for all that you have from that time forward. You’re sure that it can only get better from here, and it does. Simple things like, a smile from a stranger, fresh food in the fridge, warm clothes on your body, a comfy bed, your good health, all become things to treasure. Your life is a constant prayer of gratitude to the universe and to yourself for having the courage to move beyond hard times and choose life, when you could have chosen a number of other options just to make the pain go away.

The gems mined in your darkest moments are what give you a depth, a courage, a wisdom and a richness that can’t be learned elsewhere. And your ability to fly is in direct proportion to your willingness and courage to face your version of rock bottom. If you’ve ever been at the bottom and bounced back to tell the story, you know exactly what I’m talking about.

If you’re current sitting on rock bottom and still chafing your behind, you’re probably cursing this post, but as someone who’s been there, done that, I can tell you that you’ll thank the experience and the chafing in years to come as the best thing that ever happened to you.

Only once you are willing to explore the depths of your being can you truly be of service to the world. Only when the old foundations have come down can you begin to build again on new and solid ground.

This is the gift of rock bottom, aim for it.


What Is The Business

My precious baby girl is my biggest inspiration. She is also one of the reasons for this change. I wanted more time at home to spend with her. Growing up I was very fortunate in that my Momma was a stay-at-home parent for most of my childhood. And I want my daughter to have that same experience. I missed out on most of her kindergarten year because I was always at work. Those are priceless moments that only come once in this lifetime and once it’s gone, it’s gone. So I cherish any time I get with her. She’s growing up way too fast right before my eyes.

I heard about Enagic Kangen water through my sister. She started working for Enagic after she learned about them through her best friend. A year ago she briefly mentioned it to me and as I stated in my previous post, I didn’t understand what she was getting at with it. It wasn’t until I had an epiphany one evening in August of this year that I referred back to our conversation. I sent her a text inquiring about Enagic and said I was interested in trying Kangen water for myself. If it worked out for me, I would be interested in getting into the business side of it as well. I received my Enagic K8 the second week in September. When I saw the UPS guy pull up in my driveway that morning…I knew right there and then my life was about to change in a great big way. Ever since then I have been busy trying to learn and grow as a first time entrepreneur.

All of this wouldn’t be possible without my sister. She’s been amazing right from the start. I knew she was happy for me and that I finally saw the light – ha! Her love, words of encouragement, and support means the world to me. I am extremely proud of her for always going after what she wants in life and for not letting the opinions of others sway her once she has made up her mind about anything. Thank you for always being there, for letting me call/text you at all hours day or night – when I’m stressed out about some random trivial thing about this entrepreneurial journey or just to talk. I admire you Kathy and I love you with all my heart. Keep doing your thing you beautiful soul.

Enagic is all about team work. You have to be open and willing to listen and work together. We are like one big family…everyone is more than willing to help and support each other. Many of us host webinars just so we can connect and reach out to people who need it. I’ve never heard of webinars until I started my journey. I love that I learn something new each and every day. If you don’t know what Kangen water is, it is made by Enagic’s line of ionizers that changes the molecular structure of water to produce medical grade alkaline ionized water. The machines can produce 5 different types of water from strong acidic to a strong alkaline water that all have different uses and benefits.

I just wanted to show you what the K8 looks like and what you’ll find inside. Anyone who orders from Enagic will get their own ID number. The contents inside includes: the machine and all the supplies you need in order to hook it up to your tap, cleaning supplies for the K8, electrolysis enhancer fluid and tank, pH drops and strips to test pH levels of your water, instruction manual and CD, pamplets on how to use the K8 machine – the different water it produces and their uses, pamplet for the Ukon tea, the pH and chlorine chart, your warranty and a supply order form.


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