Since I started my entrepreneurial journey, I am battling tidal waves of fear and am practically paralyzed. Sure, being a mom is by no means easy, nor familiar, in fact it’s ever-changing, but for some reason it didn’t scare me nearly as much as starting my own business and something I believe in so much.
But probably worse than failing would be never trying and having those lingering thoughts that keep me up way later than I already am every night, “what if I had just tried”…and, after all they always say, if you can’t get something out of your head, you just have to go for it!
What Are My Fears?
Fear that I don’t know what I’m doing. This is not true and intellectually I know it. But emotionally it is eating me up. I have never worked for myself before. So I am learning as I go along and it’s been one heck of a ride so far. I’m loving every second of it though.
Fear of getting big. Yes I fear big success and fear having employees. I know that managing people is not my strong point. And then there’s the issue of finding that sweet spot between running a fast-growing business and keeping up with my personal life that feels like an impossible feat.
Fear of asking for help. This is a doozy. I hate asking for advice or favours or help, and this fear plagued me all my life. I think it goes back to a self-esteem issue: I don’t feel worthy of receiving someone’s valuable time, advice or assistance. I’m afraid to be perceived as taking advantage of someone else. I’m afraid to be a burden to others. I feel awful if I cannot reciprocate in-kind and am taking “something for nothing”.
I’ve been putting out seeds of information about my new venture mostly to push myself into doing it. I know I can do this. But I’m shaking in my shoes.
Without mistakes, you’d never be able to learn honestly, that’s how I learn best. I want to be able to help others out along the way and show them that they can achieve whatever it is they are dreaming of or think they can’t do. I’ve been my own little cheerleader through this and of course reached out to so many people in my life but sometimes you just want to hear it from someone who’s going through it and who gets ya. The hustle is real.
The one thing holding most of us back is the false belief that we can’t do it, something, anything until it’s ready, perfect, finished.
Here’s the truth, if you wait for it to be ready, it never will be. You have got to be willing to put it out there before it’s ready.
The fact of the matter is that nothing is as good as it can be when it’s first released and if you wait for that magic day when it’s just right, you’ll never get there. So go for it today, don’t wait. You are ready NOW.